February 22nd, 2012



Today, I had a very messy, loud, and wet breakdown on the phone, calling out from work. It was truly disgusting, filled with lots of hyperventilating and some snot. This comes from trying to work through a labyrinth of shit that I created by not being on top of my dad's stuff. It really sucks that I can't point at someone else and blame them for all the crap that I'm swimming through. Besides, I've already cursed myself out more times than anyone else could.

I spent the major part of the day on the phone and there might be some progress and I might get out of this almost okay. But I'm not taking a breath until I know for sure. One bright spot--I got a lot of reading done while holding for everyone and their granny and the bank was very patient with my loud, soggy outburst. I guess this is going to take a very long time to fix, and in the meantime, I can't let it rule me but fuck, it's hard for it not to.

Thanks, I had to get that off my chest. Wow, and yesterday was so nice. I kind of knew I was going to pay for it today. Ach, well, tomorrow's another day, yes?

The icon says it all. ;)


Thanks for the support, guys. I really appreciate it. They were pretty decent to me at work today. I apologized to the poor person I unloaded on. She was super understanding and I guess just glad to see me dry and in one piece. :) Thank goodness Mr R is wonderfully soft and absorbent.

I'm going to respond to all of you and remind myself that I really do know the nicest people in the world. ♥HUGHUGHUG♥